The Story of the Spread

Act 1: The Uncorrupted Spark

I have stepped into my 45th year sitting on a goldmine of raw intuitive potential (page of cups). The passion driving me is undeniable and fast. (knight of wands) I am surrounded by an energetic support system that wants to see me win (3 of cups). The universe has handed me the blueprint of what I need to build Numsciecology into something real. The wave function is loaded and ready to collapse.

Act 2: The Jungian Block

But right now the energy is stalling. I am hiding my potential and wrestling with massive imposter syndrome (6 of wands reversed) because I can’t seem to articulate the vision clearly in my own head (ace of swords reversed)The hidden truth!I am rebelling against the boring physical and structural work required to build an empire (the emperor reversed and page of pentacles reversed). And the reason I am avoiding the work is my emotional bandwidth is tapped out. I am refusing to fully close a door that already shut back in february. The 5 of cups and 8 of cups (both reversed) show that I am staring at spilled water grieving a past dynamic and refusing to walk away from the ghosts. I cannot build a new reality while my focus is anchored in the past. I never realized that I was terrified that if I step into my authority (2 of wands reversed) i would be doing it alone.

Act 3: The Trajectory 

This is where my story shifts from what is happening to what I am supposed to do. The universe is demanding three actions.

1. Sever the Dead Code

(2 of Cups Reversed)My first job is the emotional severing. The 2 of cups in reverse demands that i officially break the energetic contract with the past. I must stop bleeding my intuitive energy into a closed cycle. The wheel of fortune is right there beside it promising that the second i genuinely let go of that passed grief the karmic wheel will spin me forward.

2. Force the Mental Collapse 

(the 2 of swords and the 6 of pentacles)I must stop riding the chaotic passion of the knight of wands and force my mind into a decision (2 of swords). Clearing out the fog means I must take Numsciecology out of my head and ground it into reality (6 of pentacles). I will do this through exchange. I will write down the formulas, record the videos, create the template and put the framework in front of people.  I need to let it interact with the public. 

3. Build the Scaffolding

(the emperor & 10 of cups) My final piece of work is physical discipline. The Emperor demands that i act like a CEO. I need to set a daily schedule, manage my digital assets, structure the framework and do the tedious steps that ground the vision onto the earth. The payoff for doing this difficult unglamorous work is my 10 of cups. Total holistic, generational and emotional fulfillment. The Bottom Line: I have to stop floating in grief and daydream. I must cut the cord, sit down at my desk and become the authority of my own life. Spirit is already shining on the outcome. I just have to build the road to get there!